Monday, 4 January 2016

A Sad Look Back and A Hopeful Look Forward

Hi everyone, first off Happy New Year!!! :-D  I hope you all have a great new years eve and are having a good start to the year so far.  In this post I want to have a brief look back over my 2015 and mention a few of the things I'm hoping for in 2016, so grab a cuppa and get comfy, it's a bit of a long one!


I'm sad to say I didn't have the best year last year (ooh feels weird to say that already).  After quite a reasonably good start and a positive outlook, my ex broke up with me in May and things went steadily downhill from there.  Another major bad point was when one of my close family members was rushed into hospital in July and at one point we didn't even know if they would be here now, you can read more about that here.  It was a very difficult, stressful and worrying time and I literally ran myself ragged going back and forth to the hospital, helping them recover afterwards and generally worrying so much for about a month.


After that my health took a nose dive too, I obviously over did things and ended up having an epic fibro flare up for about 2 months, where I just felt constantly ill all the time and ultimately got more and more depressed, disheartened and stressed about everything!  My health was a big worry, I was feeling constantly tired all the time, I didn't feel like doing anything especially work of any kind and was sleeping way too much too, I felt like all my 'get up and go' got up and went!  Sadly that all carried on right up until a few weeks ago and I feel like I pretty much lost most of this year with trying to cope with life, the time just disappeared and I have nothing to show for it.  So needless to say, I'm quite glad to see the back of 2015 and I'm waving it off with a 'good riddance' look on my face! :-)

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The last few weeks however, have been a blur of working on Christmas posts and buying gifts, having a very quite Christmas and NYE, and eating too much chocolate.  However I do already feel different, I feel I have a little sense of hope for this coming year, especially in the way of it being a more productive time.  For a long while I've had several plans and dreams and have wanted to make a few particular things happen but honestly, I've never put enough effort in to making them happen, other things always seem to get in the way and during this past year especially, I've really lost out on opportunities and have let people down in the process which I'm not proud of at all!  So this year it's time to change that!  I have several exciting projects that I'm hoping to tell you about over the next few months, as well as this I just really want to put more effort into living, getting healthier and being happier.  Spending more quality time with my friends, a lot less time on my pc and drinking more water is definitely high on the list too lol :-)

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I do have several good things to look back on from this past year - even though my ex and I broke up, I still have some nice memories from when we were together like having the best Valentines day I've ever had.  My birthday was made very special too by having a really lovely birthday dinner with him and all my friends.  I also overcame some of my social anxiety last June by going to my best friend's birthday party, the first one I've had the courage to go to in years, I had a really good time and met some really great people.  We also held our own Halloween party with some of those people and had a really fun night :-)


And finally, last year my blog had it's 2nd blog birthday in November.  I ran another giveaway which is always fun to do and I had loads of really lovely comments and support from you guys.  I'm always so grateful for your support and for every follower, so thank you so much xx

I hope you all have a really wonderful year to come, fulfil your dreams and don't let time pass you by, grab every opportunity and make each moment count :-)
Until Next Time Stay Happy

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